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And I still sleep in your shirt, only because it feels like you.
And you still walk me to every class but you're talking to someone else.
And you still walk me to class but you're talking to her.
And you still hold my hand, but you pull away.
And you still hug me, but it's a friendly hug.
And you still kiss me,
But it's on the hand.
You still call me, but you hang up.
You still call me but you don't say I love you.
We still talk, but we yell.
You still compliment me, but it's "pretty" instead of "beautiful"
And you still call me but you don't say a word.
And you tell me not to cry...
But it's because you don't want to hear it.
And you still tell me not to hurt myself.
Because you care.
You still say Hi to me at school...
But you don't smile.
Wait for me...
I'm still here. <3
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[13 Mar 2005|10:55am] |
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Chelsea slept over last night, after Ashleighs party. We went home early, because we were kind of bored, just sitting in the corner like a couple of losers, and because Chelsea didn't feel well. So we went back to Chelsea's house and we went online...She was on the phone with Meg, while I was on the phone with Jonny Boy... Then she ended up coming back here and we kind of just hung out and talked on the phone more. :) Me and my gay-boring-silly-brutal-BEAUTFUL ;)-Life.
In this world of black and white....you are my colored picture. :)
 <3 
_MyObsession_
_noissesbOyM_
We were madd bored when we came home last night, so we found these CD's of all baby songs and Disney Songs, so Chelsea told me to dance to one, so I started dancing to the Pocohantas song "Just Around the Riverbend." It was funny. Every time the song said Just Around the Riverbend, I would spin around with my arms stretched out. I seriously think Chelsea was a few seconds away from peeing her pants. She started dancing to "A Whole New World" from Alladin, but...lets not go there. :) ;)
Well, I'm out.
<33
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[12 Mar 2005|09:00am] |
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Ben this is all for you...
~Ever since this all started you've been my best friend, and you always will be. You've been there for me through everything...and I respect you for that. You've always been there to support me, and to support my decisions. You've always made me laugh, sometimes you made me cry, other times.. you made me feel that I was the most amazing person in the world. I don't know what to give back to you, and I don't know how I could ever give something so great to you. Whenever I was sad, you and Libby were the only ones there to cheer me up, and give me hugs. You were the ones to bring a smile shinier than the sun to my face. Sometimes...you were the only ones who cared. Ben, I Love you more than anything because you're the best person I know. I'm sorry for everything...and I'm sorry that this didn't work out the way we had planned. You'll always be my crying shoulder, and you'll always be in my heart. <33 ~
Always. <33333
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[11 Mar 2005|09:33am] |
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The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your life
Woke up this morning at 9:13, felt better, but still hurt. My whole body aches for some reason...I'm thinking it's becoming something other than the stomach flu. Someone tell me to feel better, because only Angeleah and Jon have. :\ I Love them, they care. :)
Party next Friday, bitches!* ~And Seriously, if you're a guy...and you weren't invited..then the reason might be, that if you did come...you'd be getting a full make over. :) ~
Damn right, it's better than yours* lmfao..haha--Chelsea. <3
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[10 Mar 2005|07:57pm] |
| Everything BOLD is true :) |
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01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips
02. I (Need) see a therapist
03. I'm the youngest child...and only :)
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness
05. I have gauged ears
06. I wear black eyeliner every day
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness
08. I love to write
09. I can't live without lipgloss
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred
11. I lived in Tahoe
12. I spend money I have
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years
14. I love designer handbags
15. I've had a concussion before
16. I'm not good with confrontation
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi
20. I've tried writing poetry before
21. My first kiss was unexpected
22. I'm not a fan of rap
23. I love taking pictures
24. I don't like girls who are fake
25. I can be mean when I want to
26. I love AFI
27. I have kissed someone who's name starts with a "D"
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child
30. I dress how I feel that day
31. My room is painted a color other than white
32. I cry very easily
33. I'm always early
34. I barely ever study for tests
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser
37. I am a morning person
38. I wish I was smarter
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I think that its ok to be gay.
41. No one REALLY knows me
42. I don't have many bad hair days
43. I sometimes fight with my parents
44. I am passionate about my interests
45. I have had the chicken pox
46. I'm a hopeless romantic
47. I feel empty sometimes (all the time)
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life
49. I am no longer depressed
50. I am very outgoing
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken
54. I hate ignorant people
55. I love the color yellow
56. I love guys that play the guitar
57. I state the obvious
58. I'm a happy person
59. I have absolutely no self-confidence
60. I've contemplated suicide
61. I hate cleaning my room
62. I tend to get jealous
63. I like to play video games
64. I love John Mayer
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before(Still do) haha ;)
68. I am too forgiving
69. I bite my nails
70. I have a good sense of direction
71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
74. I love kisses on the forehead
75. I love the color blue
76. I don't sew
77. I am not addicted to drugs
78. I wear contacts
79. I hate it when people say they hate Bush because he is a moron. They should have more reason than that
80. I really, really, really, really don't like Bush, but I have reasons to justify it.
81. I don't take criticism well
82. Conformity is stupid
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums
89. I can be too hard on myself
91. I have had Mono
92. I am very religious
93. I still act like a little kid
94. I am ridiculously indecisive
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife
96. I love music
97. I'm in love.
98. I have problems letting go of people
99. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever ... who?
100. I don't really like ice cream
101. I have freckles
102. my birthday is in December
103. Brody Dalle is pretty
104. I like older guys
105. I've gotten in numerous fights, and have won most of them
106. I get bored very easily
107. My parents are divorced
108. I wish my parents were divorced
108. I don't even know what my natural hair color is anymore.
109. I get really anxious in big crowds of unfamiliar people |
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| Because saying "I Love you" has nothing to do with meaning it.* |
[10 Mar 2005|09:09am] |
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When you can't fall asleep, and your heart hurts so bad, and the only thing you can do is sit in bed like a puddle, you just need someone in your presence...But it's too late. You can't call your best friend, because they're sleeping. You hug the stuffed animal your boyfriend gave you for Valentines day, wishing he was there, wishing your best friend was there, wishing someone could comfort you. You can only think about the things that are bad, and your stomach ache gets even worse. You want someone to hold you, and tell you it's all okay...No One's around. So you lay back down, and sob, still hugging the stuffed animal, and fall into a light sleep, and you wake up every half hour until 1:00, and then you sleep the whole night through after that, even though you haven't slept a whole night through in months because there's so much on your mind. The night goes by too fast, and you wake up screaming because your dreams are full of horror and you just can't wake up from them...Your alarm goes off, you wish it hadn't because you feel sick again, and you just want to sleep. You can't. You get up, go to school...and just tell your best friends to hold you. Only 3 of them do...you go the the nurses office, come home...and you're back where it started. <3
http://www.projo.com/ Click that, go to "Stomach Flu hits Southern New England" at the bottom of the page, and watch.
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| Respect the Heart that breaks for you.* |
[09 Mar 2005|03:47pm] |
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I was told to update. So I'm doing so.
I haven't felt good since Saturday when I went to the mall with Chelsea, and she spilt my drink all over the floor. Some little girl was like, taking a bath in it, and some old guy was sitting in it. Only a genius could manage that one.
So, at 12:55 today, I went to the Nurse because I felt like my stomach was going to pop or something. I got out of Pre-Algebra, atleast. ;) I walked past the Gym and saw Ben and Billy laying on the floor stretching...lmao. I was in there with a throbbing head ache and a growling tummy for about 45 minutes. I was bored, so I was rolling around on the bed, thingy...and I fell off. :( Then I went back to class, and I walked by the gym and saw Ben again. :p When I got back to class they were talking about poetry, (need I remind you that this is a MATH class.) So I sat there taking Poetry notes, and then the bell rang, thankfully. So I skipped away to my locker and came home?
lol, It was so funny in P.E. today. Brandon was sitting out, so he was on the bleachers, and I was kind of sitting near him, and I had a ball. So I was like, "OMG! I think I'm pregnant..I really don't feel good, and look at my stomach!" as I put the ball next to my stomach. He started laughing, so I kept saying all of these random things like.."I'm going into labor!" and..."HERE IT COMES!" It was funny how I made him laugh so hard. :) Then they told us to sit down, so I plopped down on the floor and rolled backwards, lmao, Brandon literally turned purple, everyone thought it was pee-your-pants funny..., rely on Lindsay to be the funny one. :)
No CCD tonight, which I am proud to announce. Probably going to the Beef Barn for dinner wiff my daddy...because my mom's getting a haircut...What a joy. I must establish a new nation, so that people can do whatever they feel like. :) I'd be the Lady* President.
Angeleah officially doesn't know what peanut butter is. :) Wow, she's a genius, too. *wink, wink*
Best Friend-ILU! *Promises w/o Crossies* lol <33
Comment, tell me you love me, and make me feel better. :)
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and s h a r p e r
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing.
<33
I feel like a shit-bubble. :(
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[06 Mar 2005|09:07am] |
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x3 Selfish Love x3: It's like everyone has to pull one bad thing out of me, and then they turn it into something it's not. They'll use that one thing against me, because I know I'm not perfect...and I know no one ever will be.
I can't keep chasing myself anymore, someone's has to come after me, someone has to find me. Someone has to be there for me. Someone has to comfort me with a shoulder to cry on. Someone has to understand. It's not right when you do absolutely nothing wrong, and suddenly the world around you, absolutely dispises you for EVERYTHING, as little as...Saying No. To be scared of something, until it makes you sick to your stomach, and you can only think about anything about that one thing for days. To sit up at 3 a.m in the morning crying and wondering who'll ever know...but you realize no one ever will, so you suck it all up, lay back down, and dream about everything coming together. To have to talk to your best friend, but they won't answer you, and they wont pick up their phone. You let everything that you choke on, freeze in your heart until you're ready to think about it again...but you're never ready, it just becomes another story. Another story about how you choke on all your sadness and let it burn you. Another story about how everyone around you lives a happy little tale, and they have no time to think about carrying you when you've fallen. You can't sit there and pretend to be happy anymore, because it hurts, and you're just afraid to hurt, and you're afraid of getting hurt. I'm tired of trying to bottle everything up inside, because things become beyond my control, and no one can do a thing about it. You watch everything you ever had, wash away as you cry. And to watch it all fade, it makes you feel so helpless, and it makes you want to die, or do something drastic. You feel like throwing up, every other time you eat, because it feels like you ate your life away...but you never do, because you feel better when your best friend makes you laugh. Thats not the story anymore. I have my feelings, and no matter how silly, or lame they sound..they just make me human, because I'm just like everyone else...because everyone has feelings, and everyone cries. Just feeling the need of someone to hold you, and tell you everything's going to be okay in the end, someone to make you laugh, Someone...someone to make you feel loved again. If you're the person who knows what I'm talking about, I sympathize with you. Everything's so hard, and everyone hates it, but you have to deal, because there's nothing else you can do to make your head clear of all of these scary thoughts...images in your mind. Because if the world didn't suck...we would all fall off.
x3 Selfish Love x3: And what you wrote, in your LJ...is the Most DISCUSTING thing I've ever heard anyone say. CookieMonsta115: because you're the most disgusting person i've ever met in my entire life.
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[03 Mar 2005|08:05pm] |
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Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hung up on him, who'll lie under the stars & listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, and thinks your just as pretty without makeup. One who's constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says 'thats her'...:)
I saw her today
I saw him today
It seems like it's been forever.
I wonder if he still cares?
She looks better than before.
I couldn't help but stare at him.
I asked her how she was.
I asked him about his new girlfriend.
I'd choose her over any girl.
He's probably so happy now.
I couldn't look at her without thinking I'd cry.
He couldn't even look at me.
I told her I missed her.
He said he missed me.
I meant it.
He didnt mean it.
I Love her
He Loves her.
I held her.
He gave me a friendly hug.
Then I went home and cried.
Then I went home and cried.
I've lost her.
I've lost him.
*sigh*
*sigh*
First Loves Never really have an Ending...
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said no. Then she asked him he liked her and he said no She asked him if he wanted to be with her 4eva He said no She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away He again said no She had heard 2 much She needed to leave As she walked away he grabbed her arm and told her to stay he said Youre not pretty youre beautifulI dont like you I love you I dont want to be with you 4eva i need to be with you forever and I wouldnt cry if you walked away I would die.
WHAT IS LOVE?
Love is seeing him how no one else does
Love is when u know he’s not perfect but u see him perfectly
Love is thinking about him day and night
Love is when he means the world to you
Love is when no one else knows how you feel
Love is the best feeling u can feel
If you love her,
tell her she's amazing,
pick her flowers from other people's yards,
throw rocks at her window at night,
make her laugh,
slow dance with her
even if the music's fast,
kiss her in the rain,
but most of all...
JUST TELL HER.
You're Perfect…
…Because everything you do
Makes me smile
…Because every second spent with you
Is worth while
…Because when you laugh at me
I laugh too
…Because everyone else can see
That I’m devoted to you
…Because I love your eyes
And the way they shine
…Because you don’t tell lies
And you’re so cute when you whine
…Because when you get mad
You can’t hide it
…Because even when you’re sad
I can find it
…Because the way you hold me
Sends shivers down my spine
…Because your spirits so free
And you’re so damn fine
…Because I never stop thinking about you
It’s not fair
…Because you’re just perfect
And no one else can compare…
<33 :)
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A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman,"
she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you
never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no
reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he asked God. He said, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said:
" When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet
gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that
many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives
up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without
complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all
circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned
her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him
unfalteringly.
And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use
whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she
wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway
to her heart - the place where love resides."
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I'm not going to sit here and wait for someone to say, "Lindsay...what's wrong?" because that never works, because my words aren't enough for anyone to take notice...so I'm just going to say it...
Something's Wrong.
You can't stop crying because your making yourself not cry...and you're just hiding the dark storm of what's behind your eyes.
What do you do when the only person that's supposed to trust you, just...doesnt...?
I hate this...I'm going to talk to Nick...
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| I Hate that Everything you said was a lie... |
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You're sick.
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I want a boy. A nice and bad boy.
A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it.
He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga.
He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.
He'll stay home with me and watch Disney Movies.
And he'll tell me he loves it even though he doesn't,
and the only person he would ever watch it with would be me.
He'll call me at 3a.m. and ask me what I'm doing.
He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.
He'll text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you!"
And he always whispers something sweet in my ear.
He'll take me to a concert to see my favorite performer even if he doesn't like them.
And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.
When I cry he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear.
He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me.
All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them.
He'll stay up with me all night when im sick.
When we're walking together he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear.
He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect.
We always end up laughing about silly fights.
We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it.
Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Every time he kisses me.
He'll tell me he'd die without me.
He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day.
He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy.
When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose, then I'll put some all over his face.
And we just never stop laughing.
he wouldnt be scared to cry in front of me--
--and would hold me when i cry ..
he'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he's ever met.
He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machines.
We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing.
He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch *snowflakes* on our tongues
Even though he doesn't like snow, but I love it.
He would grab my waist and kiss my neck.
And we'd always take pictures in photo booths.
He'll let me go places with his mom.
We would play tag and not care whos watching.
We'd kiss in the rain.
And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again.
I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me,
and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize.
I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars.
Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house
When we kissed our hips would be pressed together.
I want someone to be there no matter what ... always and forever
Perfect.
I'll be his everything.
And he'll be even more to me .
He will love me for always.
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How Many
Smiles
Can One PersOn ACTUALLY
Fake?
Well, I got up at like 9:10 this morning..and I knew it wasn't going to be a good day. Came online, and found out Lib was having a party...yet another one I wasn't invited to...No One seems to know why she didn't invite me either. I'm not even sure I want to know. Jon won't talk to me, again, I think? Ben's gone, I think? Not sure where he went this time...Mom went shopping, so I'm here alone. I'm having a bad hair day and my cat won't leave me alone. What else could make it worse? Okay I'm done.
Yesterday I went to the mall with my mom. I got 2 new pairs of jeans, (that are too big) Earrings, and "You Got Served" on DVD, then I came home and watched it, and it was good. I went to bed around 11:00, but I didn't fall asleep until about 11:30. I could only think about the things I could never fix...
There's nothing you can say to keep me here.
You can't control me...
Only I can.
Say what you want...
You're that much less important to me.
Someone's sleeping over tonight, because my 'rents are going out to dinner with my Aunt and Uncle... :)
Well, I gotta go clean and get ready--for nothing?
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I'm taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind
I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand
You need to hold on to
But every time I call
You don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you *mine*
You're nothing at all
I know there’s a million reasons why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say
Could easily make this conversation last all day
I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand
You need to hold on to
But every time I call
You don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
Another lesson I didn't get to learn
You're my obsession
I've got nowhere to turn
I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to
But I guess I'll never get to call you mine
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| You caused so much pain...I won't take it anymore. |
[23 Feb 2005|05:50pm] |
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Well, Chelsea slept over the other night. We didn't really do anything exciting, but we were emptying out a Watermelon and Chelsea was putting some in the toilet ((Icky)) and I went in my room for a second, and I heard this HUGE splash, and I walked in the bathroom and I saw Chelsea standing over the toilet with a spoon in her hand, with out the watermelon...So I ran into the bathroom and looked in the toilet and Chelsea started Cracking up. She dropped the effing watermelon in the toilet. Lmao.
Last night I slept at Carissa's with Audra, Angeleah, and Steph. Angeleah fell asleep first around 1:00 and then I fell asleep around 1:30. Supposedly Angeleah threw up at 2:30, and I wasn't awake for it...lol. Then I woke up and I was surrounded by everyone and they all started farting...It was so gross...I think Audra and I were the only ones not doing it..and then Steph bent over in my face and did it...Ew, it smelt so bad...lol. Yeah, so yesterday we walked to Pacheco, and no one was there, so we walked through the park and we went in the back of Avery's house, and she was outside with Sidra, so we talked for like 15 minutes, and Steph attacked me after I spit on her and I got all wet from the cold snow :( Then we went to Hercules and ate Pizza and Mozzerella Sticks.. MmM. Angeleah went into Avery's backyard...but she had to hop the fence first...and she ripped a hole in her jeans, and I did that today while I was doing Cartwheels in the basement...haah, It wasn't pretty. lol. We were up last night watching the movie we made last year when me and Angeleah slept over on the 4th of July...Omg, we were so tiny and stupid.."If you don't mind I'm gonna get my hair elastic, and if you do mind then.......Oh!" lmao. Angeleah before she got her braces, and Carissa before she started to grow her bangs out. lol. So Cute. haah. Then we started to make another movie and it wasn't that funny. I fell asleep on a cushion on the floor, and Carissa put another on top of me and then Said, "The Lindsay Sandwich!" and then she jumped off the couch and landed on top of me...Ow. I woke up and started beating the fo' shizzle out of her. We walked to Block Buster this afternoon and got "You Got Served" and Carissa gave us Dancing lessons...lol. <33 you guys.
Ben and I kind of got in a fight...I think...over absolutely nothing, because I didnt do anything, and neither did he, so Idk what's going on now. :\
This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
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PAY BACK ON MEGAN! Haah...You asked for it!! :p
For all of you who don't know...That's Ben's older, Crazy, and weird cousin...MEGAN NARODOWY!! :p
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I found a bunch of funny pictures of my friends...So I decided to put 'em in.
 Its Jonny!!! Can't really see him, and the picture is old anyway. :)
^Liz Sam Jake and Kayla, Summer '04.
Me wiff a bunch of my Besssssstest Friends on the last day of School. June '04. Chris Angeleah Casey Josh (he's just...there for no reason) Brett Mikey and Me!
^Audra Jean!!! and ^Libby Lu!
 Haah, Me Chelsea and Angeleah a few hours before the Valentines Day Dance...How Gay.
 Lmao, It's Me and Benny at the dance! And then there's my big cousin Jarred trying to talk to me while I'm trying to dance...Learn some respect, dammit! lol
Haah...Thought I should Share them with yall.
<33
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Last year I think was one of the best years of my life. I had everything...but most important...I had my Best Friends...
Carissa
Angeleah
Mikey
Casey
Chris
Brett
We had the BEST times together, and maybe a few bad, but we've always pulled through, and we always will.
Every Memory, From begining 'til now...
*Fishies.
*Lunchables
*Sledding
*Man Hunt
*Pool Sliding
*Running in the rain
*Sumo Wrestling
*Tick Tick Tick
*Pizza
*Would you like a piece
*Drawing on eachother
*Degrassi
*Movies in Carissa's basement
*Playing Pool
*The Golfball
*Jesse
*Can On Fire
*Trampoline
*Bug Spray
*Can I take your order?
*Sparklers
*Stop sniffing it
*Water Water Everywhere
*Pillow Fight
*Dancing
*Woaaaah!
*Pole!
*I called Matt a...hahahaha
*Notes
*Sleepovers
*Mikey's Money
*VAL
*The Gang!
*Golfball
*Climbing in my Window.
*Trying to tie Brett up in Belts
*Ouija!!!!
*Poker
*Quotes
*Splash & Pimpin' Piggy
*Me Angeleah and Brett at the Beach, and everything from there.
*Throwing things out the window...
More...But this is getting wayy to big. But the funniest One is yet to come: Angeleah's In Looooove..
^This is Jordan, he's in 9th Grade...and Angeleah Loooooves Him. Haaah.
And then there's Me and Chris...Finding Nemo.
 Haaah...we were so good with those immatations. LMAO.
And the time Me, Carissa and Angeleah thought we were Animals...hhhaaaaaaaaahhhh 
Well this is too much to remember. I Love you guys, and I'll never forget that year. You guys are the Best. <3333333333333
<33
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